Up, Down and Sideways…
History repeats itself. Here I sit at 2:39 in the morning, wondering just what I did wrong in this life to make God mad at me. I have spent the evening in the local ER again trying to save my sisters life. She collapsed during dinner tonight. It was everything we could do to get her into her room and in bed. This was after two falls yesterday and the EMT/Fire Department arriving to help me pick her up off the floor. They came back this evening and it took four guys to get her on the cot. Then I had the fastest ambulance trip I have ever been on. Lights and sirens the whole way. The whole time Cathy is unresponsive. After hours of tests, it was determined that she had pnemonia in both lungs. When I left to come home she was stable even though still unresponsive. I had just walked in the door when the phone rang. It was the ER Doctor calling to tell me she had taken a dive south and he had put her on a respirator and was going to be in ICU. Bless her heart she has had such a rough life. She has been sick so much of her life, spent so much time in hospitals, on life support numerous times, rehabs, nursing homes – and she is only 58. My heart goes out to her.
Two weeks ago we found her a miniature dachshund puppy. She had quit smoking the last hospital round and in return we told her we would find her a puppy. She had dogs for many years and has wanted one for quite a long time. She decided what breed, so the search was on. Well, as I said, “Sammy” came to live with us and be a loving friend to my sister. He bonded with her immediately. Even though there are always people coming and going and dogs around and loving from all angles, he chose Cathy to be his surrigate mother. He stayed next to her or laid on her from the very first moment they met. I am so thankful! He is so lost this evening without her being here.
And yep, out of a job again. I was so shocked! After much discussion it was determined that I threatened my new boss because I was more versed with software than she. So instead of being glad that I knew what I did and taking advantage of my knowledge and willingness to help, she got nervous that I might make her look bad. What ya gonna do? In a way I felt like it was God stepping in and taking charge knowing that I was needed to help with my sister and mother.
Sooooo, I have taken advantage of the time and started sewing again. I had forgotten how much I enjoyed putting the pieces of the puzzle together and coming out with a beautiful outfit for my granddaughter. As a matter of fact I have made enough outfits from fabric I had already purchased that she will not need to have any clothes purchased to get her through the summer other than a swimsuit and flip flops. I may not be making money, but I sure am helping save it. Besides, there is so much instant gratification with sewing. You see the end result so much faster than knitting. Don’t get me wrong – I LOVE to knit. It is just nice to do something different for a change.
Well, I think I am going to go put lydacain patches on my shoulder (from where I pulled the muscle trying to keep Cathy from falling), put on a meditation cd and try to get calmed down so that I can get some sleep before I have to start another hectic day.
I do believe I have said before “Bad things happen to good people”, but it is worth saying again.
Namaste,
Deborah
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